Letter From A Broken Heart
depression, romance, young adult, letter
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A little letter I never sent...
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When asked what I would say to you, I simply nodded. I said that I would hate you for eternity, for what you’ve done. However, in my heart, that is not what I feel. I am lost without you. I don’t even know where to begin. If I could say those words to make everything right, I would. Yet, I don’t. I will never know. That kills me, no; it destroys me, inside.
These past few months, they have been hard. On not just me, but everyone connected to us. I have drug people down with me, and that, is unforgivable. Yes, I admit I’ve done some horrible, unforgiving sins, yet not a day goes by where I don’t regret every one of them.
There have been times when I was haunted by my memories, tormented, as if they were mocking me! There were times when I’d have nightmares of them. Then I would dream of you. Yes, I’ve dreamt of you. Many nights I have. It hurt to see your face in my dreams. It hurt to see my past replaying in my head, but I still dreamt. I dreamt of what I would say if, I ever saw that sweet face of yours once more. Of what I would do to make you love me as you did before. Nay, that is not what I want. I don’t want to love you. It destroyed us. Love is what tore us apart. I loved you too much, and it ruined our lives. Because of love, I am scarred for life. Therefore, I do not wish it any longer.
I have tried, and failed, to call many times. Only once did I succeed. I have left messages. At least, I have tried. I’ve only ever yearned to hear your melodic voice once more. No, I’m not attached. I’ve done my best to move on with my life. Yet there is still a calling within me that wonders how you are doing. How are you doing in your life without me in it? How have you grown? Have you learned to let go, and move on?
Your love is something that has yet to escape me. I have written on it so many times. I have had your memory and whatnot as the basis for many stories. Many of the songs I have written and stories are dealing with pain of loss, and unforgiving truths. Why I have done this, you may ask. The answer is quite simple. Because I am nothing without you, your memory has forced me to write of what we were. Many of my stories deal with a character who has lost a loved one and has some mistake that he cannot forgive himself for, and therefore is tearing him up inside. You know of what mistake(s), I speak. Therefore, it makes complete sense.
I assume that knowing you were a great friend before any of this ever happened is what dominates me. Plus, in case you didn’t know, I’ve accepted the fact that we will never be again, what we once were. It took over six months, but I’m finally over you. Although it may not be one hundred percent, and it may never be, I have done what I could to move on.
People have told me, that it was excessively long. However, I moved at my own pace; sulked in my own scars and tears long enough. I may never forget what I’ve done, nay, but I have forgiven what I’ve done. My only hope and dream is that you can forgive me one last time and speak to me once again.
You may never be my “little angel” again, but you can still be the friend I have only ever longed for. Therefore, I can support you when needed, and help you through troubled times once more. To me, you will never just be a figment of my past. You are real. As real as a butterfly in the spring. As real as the rain in summer, or the snow in winter. You will never be purely a memory.
The reasons I have for letting you go are quite clear. I needed to be rid of you so that I may move one. So that I may soon be, complete yet again. For this, I am truly sorry, but it needed to be done. Now that I am, I am begging
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just so you know, you're not the only one who feels this way. i too, have lost love. sometimes i still think about it and it destroys me. eventually, i will find new love and everything will be okay. i guess thats how that works. ill find that out soon enough. anyways, your letter. it kind of hurt me to read this, as i can definately relate to it. when i am hurt, i write songs and poetry about it. i really appreciate the way you wrote this letter this; expressing that you have moved on but you still wonder what would happen if you could see her, talk to her, or be with her.
the theme is simple enough to understand. lost love hurts. lost love can haunt you. thats what i got from this.
the mood of the piece is dark and depressing. it is effectively maintained.
i really enjoyed reading this and look forward to reading more of your work.
Wow
First I have to nag on the title, it being untitled, is what buges me. Maybe you did that for a reson, maybe you just did not have words to sum this up. You could have done it to drive people like me crazey(not that far), but I will try to think on the + side of things. I could not come close to copieing what you felt when you wrote this so anything I could say would just be....Me. Maybe "Lost Letter" or "Torn Heart" or........anything or nothing at all.
I dont think I could critique this, its to deep, and right now it hits a sore spot. If you did ever want one to go over it and really read it and critiq. it, I would.
It starts off as you just talking about how your lost and what has been happening. You show us how hard it must have been for you and the people around you. You go on to talk about how its not easy to say what you want to say, but you say it. Then you wonder how, if you were still friends, if you could be that. You cant say love, because that is what tore you apart in the first place. You move on to ask if you could still be frends. You have moved on in your life, but you still miss that pice of you, you still think of how it was, what it could have been and what it is.
I love it, its sad and truthful. Thats why I like it. Keep writing...
Hi,
Wow. I think you have touched the hearts of many many people with this honest piece. What I especially liked was the flow and the realness, no overdone language. I felt your pain and sadness. Deep.
With some thing this close , I too have lost my love of my life and i have not been able to express all of my pain and the different emotions in writing.
You did that beautifully. Thank you for sharing something so personal.
I look forward to reading more .
hugs
Sherry
Vinny, my man! That was some very, very deep stuff there! I felt that way once when I lost someone I feel in love with. Now after reading your "open letter" it touched me big time. On a side note, I'm glad you liked my ballad "(Memories) Eversince you said Goodbye" and you're so welcome. Now to thank you for sharing your thoughts on my latest work. Peace.
Hey vinny!! I think that the way you write is sort of like mine. you write from your emotions and that is how your characters lives become so real. I do think that you had a lot of courage to post this and let people see how you really feel. I dont think that you taking six months to get over someone is a long time because it took me a little over two years to get over my ex and sometimes it still gets to me. I know how you feel. I think this was a great way for you to express yourself without actually having to tell someone how you feel. I think you did a great job....
Hey, guys, I hope you're enjoying this. I really poured my heart
out into this, and yes, it WAS personal. This is EXACTLY How I felt
about her when I wrote it. I knew I would never send the letter,
and really enjoyed the writing piece itself. So, I decided to put
it on here. Lucky Number One. Enjoy! 
Vinny B
I thank you Vinny for reading my work and thought I would return a favor tonight. I thank you for being a fan (smile) that was sweet of you.
Suggestion for title- "Love Letter Never Sent" or "Unsent Love Letter" just a thought.
I must testify, this was the right thing for me to read tonight. I just got closure myself this week and your letter hit me all over my heart. i hadn't talked to this person in 15 years and they just popped out of the blue and I had some of the exact feeling you had. Love destroyed us, I just wanted the friendship back at least. We are friends but it couldn't be a love thing again, that was a bit disappointing, but to have him for a friend is enough. I can relate to your letter, it was simply beautiful and heartfelt. I like how you said you felt complete at the end because that's how I feel like a piece of me is back.
My imagination says you really missed this person and sincerely wanted forgiveness or closure.
This was one of the best works I've read tonight, I guess because I can relate. I look forward to more writes from you soon, be blessed and hope all goes well in the near future.
It was very heartfelt. I love the descriptions about the dreams and past regrets. I love how you live in the past. This only reminds me of how all people deal with heartbreak in much the same way. I have felt in much the same way and had dreams of the past. It shows how strong the human spirit is and how capable it is of moving on whether it takes six days or six months. It shows how compassionate the human spirit is that it is capable of being friends with someone that stabbed them through the heart.
This was very detailic i liked it was good. I am farely new and i have not yet read better.
Hi! I agree with the other readers, this is a very heartfelt piece, and well-written. I take issue with only a few things. For example:
Yes, I admit I’ve done some horrible, unforgiving sins, yet not a day goes by where I don’t regret every one of them.
It's small, but do you really want "yet" here? My first instinct would be "and".
Next item:
I have had your memory and whatnot as the basis for many stories.
It doesn't seem quite right that after everything you managed to put down on paper, that you would describe her inspirational influence on you as "your memory and whatnot." Is there perhaps some other way you can describe the "whatnot" aspect of things?
And finally:
Shall you grant me this last kindness?
Only a few things seem really melodramatic. This last line was rather painful for me to read, just because it seemed a little too melodramatic. There are other examples, but this is the most striking for me. If that's what you want to say, keep it, but for me, again, it's a little painful.
Good job overall! The heartwrenching is unbelievably touching; you're quite adept at making the reader understand and feel for you. Excellent!
Hello, Vinny Balducci! I have to say that this a great letter and deep down inside, I just felt lamenting and crying somewhere inside of you. This poem seemed very depressing and oh-so gloomy. When I just read this, it makes me feel very sorry for you. This really hooked me in and due to this sad, sad letter, remember that in the darkest hours in suffering and sadness that there is also a bright light of happiness that waits to shine. I look forward to reading more of your stories.
Consider me a first fan
of yours!